THink about it...
most of the time we have more fear of man than we do of God. For instance if our boss tells us to do do something or be at work at a certian time we do it. A lot of times we do not do it out of a joyful heart but we do it none the less for fear of being fired. Or take are friends for example say you are my friend and I tell you "tomorrow, lets hang out. You wanna go get coffee?" you say "yes" and we agree to meet early in the morning before school.So when six thirty rolls around and Im getting up a whole hour early just to see you... I can do one of two things.1.) Because im not a morning person groan roll over and turn my alarm off. or 2.) Keep my promise and wake the heck up anyways(and if I am honest with myself I will choose number two because I want to keep a good repuatation with you, no one likesto be the late, undependable friend.) Well , this morning I found myself in a similar situation. I woke up at 6 o clock. I just gone to bed at 2 am.Last night my decision seemed perfectly rational for some odd reason. I was so excited to see this person. But as soon as thealarm went off... a thought went through me head (What the &#$% am I up so early for I dragged my feet and walked down the creekystairs to make a pot of coffee. I made it extra extra black... since I did not get much sleep, and wouldn't for the rest of the day. all the while kept thinking im my head ( wow, what the *@#^ am I doing up so early?. Sorry God for my poor choice of words) I drink my coffee and start to take a shower. Now im like thinking to myself.... this is love.(as im washing my hair.) and the thought was so random. I said it out loud to myself "THis is love..."
As I got out of the shower the holy spirit whispered to me in a witty way " Thought you weren't a morning person witni." All the sudden I was hit by all the times I had said to Jesus "Im going to get up early and spend time with you every morning" and never did. Why is it that we respect the opinion of man more? That if I had said that to a friend I would bust my butt to do that for them. But if i said it to God, it would okay. He is merciful right? I can sleep in as much as I want. Shouldn't my time with him be the most precious of all!!!!??? Shouldn't it be a joy to just talk to him???After all thats what I was created for. And the thing is , is he loves me more than anyone... anyone I could hang out with ever. Shouldn't I value that far above everything else? I think its time I got my priorities straight. I was so struck by this that I texted that person and said I was sick. ( If you are reading this, you know whoyou are ...forgive me :) ...I love you.... just not as much as Jesus..haha)
Paul talks about let your Yes be Yes. and your No mean NO. ANything else comes from the evil one. I have always tried to uphold that but, It always seems to fall short with God. there are countless things I have not followed through with and told him I would and I will have to give accountto that one day. It sucks so bad because what will my excuse be? Im sure he could flip through the pages of my lifeand and see all the times I have followed through for people and that breaks my heart. The only excuse I have for that is quite honestly... I am more concerned for what people think about me than God. OUch... the truth hurts... but I knowthat if all of us were honest with ourselves that would be the truth. It has been engraved into our system by the world and its something we need to violently take war agianst. The FIRST COMMANDMENT IS LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD With all yourheart, mind, soul, and strength THEN love your neighbor as yourself. We can only love our neighbor as ourself if we first love God with all we are. And sometimes love hurts. Love is the choice we make everyday to lay down our social time,our priorities, our self worship and say no, this love is precious, this heart is precious ... and it belongs to jesus. So...right now... its 7:36 am... Im really tired ... its saturday... I should be asleep BUT a promise is a promiseand I want to start my day off right. If i can get up to go see a friend... I can get up to see my Jesus xDGOOD MORNING LOVE :)!
P.s I hate editing.......
1 comment:
Ugh... That is so true.
"Work out your salvation with fear and trembling"
I don't like that verse, cause I don't like to do things in a relationship out of fear... But now I realize that a TON of stuff I do in relationships with other people is because of fear and not love...
I like the title of your blog. That is such a good title for my life.
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